Have you ever read “The Shack” by Canadian author William P. Young? It’s a book that created quite a stir with its portrayal of God as a Black woman (Papa). Well, there was another character in the book, the Holy Spirit, who was personified as an Asian woman (Sarayu). This is where the Skinny Girl comes into play for me. I know that the voice inside me is actually the Holy Spirit, leading me into truth about myself. It just came to me one day as I succumbed to this weird desire to go hiking on one of the local trails that there simply had to be someone else inside me stirring up this bizarre desire to engage in physical activity. So, I envisioned in an amusing way, a skinny version inside prompting me to do things that are very unlike me.
For several years now, I have been subtly nudged here and there by the skinny girl. I would like to say that I am in NO WAY using the term “skinny” in a derogatory manner. This is simply how I envision the internalized relationship with myself as I go on this journey to uncover who God says I am…mind, body and spirit.
This is not my quest to lose weight. For the most part, I’m quite fine where I am in that area. Now, do I have good and bad days? Absolutely! Do I ever look at myself in the mirror and dislike what I see? Yes! Am I ever frustrated when I go shopping and nothing fits properly? You’d better believe it! I’m heavy but I’m healthy (Dr. says so). I just know that where I am now is not where I will be when this is all over. Not physically, not mentally, not spiritually. I believe that God’s will for me is that through patience and endurance I will be whole, complete and lacking in nothing (James 1:4).
Come with me. I’d like to invite you to follow me on this journey and I pray that you, too, are encouraged, inspired and/or provoked to begin or deepen your own search into who the Lord says you are as well.
Peace and Blessings.