Confessions of a Recovering Pharisee

So WHO wants to admit this?? It’s never a comfortable place to be when you find out that some of the beliefs you’ve held onto for years offend God, the very One you seek to please. You thought you were doing the right thing, much like Paul, because this is what you were taught as truth. But when He, the Spirit of Truth, challenges you, you’re knocked off your feet & rendered dumbstruck as you learn all over again! It’s scary at first. Then that initial wonder returns as God clears the cobwebs, peels back the layers, & ushers you into a pure walk, re-introducing you to Him.

“Hello, my child. I’m Abba. Let ME tell you who I AM.”

I realize that I’m taking a very bold stance and many will not agree, but I was already told, similarly like Ezekiel, that many would not receive this. That’s ok, for I’m merely sharing my PERSONAL journey with God. Take it, leave it, or just read it for entertainment purposes.

The Lord began exposing my Pharisaical tendencies a few years ago and the acceleration of this uncovering increased after Martin passed away. From time to time I’ll share more. But for now, it all started with a Christian who cussed and my spirit just curdled!! You see, I was introduced to Christ through the Holiness denomination and if you did ANYTHING that wasn’t Godly (by their guidelines), you simply weren’t saved. If you weren’t filled with the Holy Ghost & that with fire with the evidence of speaking in tongues, you weren’t holy enough…you still had things to be delivered from before God would deem you worthy of filling you with His Spirit. You’re a woman & you wear pants? You needed deliverance…and the list goes on of many judgements doled out indicating that you didn’t measure up to the “standard”. This became the lens through which I judged the world…all of it!

Here’s what God shared with ME when I prayed about this person later that evening. “You don’t understand my grace…because if you did you wouldn’t judge some things the way you do.” Thus began the peeling off of layers packed on from years of spiritual oppression. That evening, He began to deconstruct what I had been taught about Him, based on human rules. Now, before some of you get nervous, I’m STILL saved. I’m just allowing God to help me throw aside the extra baggage & get rid of things that have tripped me up so I can run this race more effectively.

My heart’s desire is to know God, to live freely and expansively right here on earth (not just in the sweet by & by), and to encourage others to know God personally.

“The Lord says: “These people come near to me with their mouth and honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me. Their worship of me is based on merely human rules they have been taught.”

Isaiah 29:13 NIV

This is MY confession.

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